Body Dysmorphia

BODY DYSMORPHIA - (click on the phrase for definition)

I never knew it was something I was struggling with until I started spending time with God. He started stripping layers of myself that were keeping me bound. It was a struggle with myself.

How I looked, how I felt, how I thought........ I always wanted to look perfect from head to toe and when I say head to toe I mean head to toe. But God is teaching me not to find perfection in the outward but to find perfection in HIM.

My whole idea of being perfect and in control were lies that I had built up over the years in layers were gradually being stripped away and I was not sensitive to it until recently when I started taking my relationship with God seriously and now looking back at several circumstances I faced just made me see God arranging the affairs of my life to teach me and prepare me for the now I am experiencing.

He was showing me who I can be in Him with little cues I was not paying attention to until recently. He was so stern with me not to ignore those cues and accept it for what it is, just because He knows exactly what I need. That is when the transformation began; when I stopped ignoring those cues. I do not honestly know what is going on but remember in my previous blog posts (Through Heaven's eyes) I talked about trust. We will never know all the steps but we must 'LEARN' to trust and obey what He tells us no matter how scary and bizarre it seems. Take note of the word 'LEARN' like a student expects not to get it right at times that is why it is to be learned. God does not want us to carry out His instructions robotically but that you are gaining lessons to help you in this life so when you miss a step do not stay there, turn back to Him and put your trust in Him again.

Trusting God brings the peace that you cannot comprehend. I can say this because I have felt such peace in the midst of my storms. I thought I knew peace but I keep going into a level that I cannot comprehend and I never knew existed through the HOLY SPIRIT. It's going to be fine just know that whatever you are going through, God knows what you need and will show up for you.

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Do not ignore His cues because that is where the comfort that you need comes from. And it brings transformation and a calm and peace in your spirit you will be shocked.

'CUES', you know that thing you are ignoring saying; 'No, it's my mind', 'God couldn't do this, do that'....... Just be still enough to know the voice of the spirit in you, telling you all is well. You do not have to be afraid or ashamed anymore because all is well.

You reading this I pray the HOLY SPIRIT will shine the light of the Father in your heart so you can know what He is saying and trust that all is well. It is not 'will be well' but 'ALL IS WELL'.